so surreal..

i found out tonight that someone i knew died recently in a car crash.

im pretty speechless because we used to get tipsy and just laugh at eachother.

i didnt cry, but i almost did.

on the upside.

im pretty content with everything.

gonna start looking for another job since its slow at zumiez now.

hostess here i come.

im starting to really like him. 

it's been a while

i hope when you're awake late at night, you realize how stupid you were for pushing me aside.

cause to be completely honest, i would of treated you with so much love and respect.

glad you like feeling worthless, when i know you're none of that.

wooo winterbreak until feb.

i wanna go on a vacation really bad.

but i need to take care of things .

i.e my phone bill.

lifes good for the most part.

im done looking. no ones really worth my time anymore.

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i just thought i would rave about how much i love this album.

i love every track more and more everyday.

since 808&heartbreak, kanye's like #2 most listened artist on my last fm and most of my loved tracks recently are off the album.

i dont know why people keep hating on this album so hard.

who cares. artist does what he does. if you dont like it then just let it go.

all i have to say is, kanye, when you come around, ill be buying tickets.

doesnt mean you've won.

Time to hold my head high and push out the last month of this year. I can list so many wrong that went on this year. Yeah, Im pretty tired of getting shitted on. 

Karma, I know Im pretty awful but could you maybe lay off me for a little while? Maybe strike down upon those other then myself? thanks, lily.

on the upside. I've designed my half-sleeve. can't wait till tuesday to throw the deposit in along with a small chit chat with my artist. IM SO STOKED.. and everyone I've shown really likes what I want. Im just crossing my fingers that my artist likes it as well. I was really so so about color but now Im kinda considering it. 

hopefully I don't get disowned by my parents..

spoke too soon for my own good

i really need to stop looking for something that only comes.

i invest all my time in it and lose myself in a silly idea, 

to get hit in the face by everything else.

worst day ever.

my car must hate me

cause it died at school today.

and i felt like an idiot when i asked around for help.

:\ my dad just ended up coming and jumping my car for me..

and then for me to come home to feel more like an idiot..

im just tired of everything.

its seriously highs and lows..

more lows if anything

the only good thing is my tattoo progress

im really only excited for that

im planning jusst to do the whole sleeve 

i can't help but say i told you so

karmas a bitch aint it.
as much as i hate you.
im still here.. always, like i said i'd be

im in for it too but im not too worried.
ill deal with it later.